last draw?

"actions speaks louder than words" for awhile i thought that was true, but in a recent intrication, i've learned otherwise. that no matter how much you've showed someone, especially your significant other how much they mean to you, one word can change somethings if not all. it hurts to hear you say those words to me even if it was out of anger, and it's going to take a lot of time for me to get over it, and honestly, i dont know where and how to begin to deal with it. i'm sure i've said things that hurt you as well, but i never ever intentionally said those things to hurt you. that was the difference between us....unintentional.

our hardest fights and arguments has been about a subject that shouldn't have been fought about in the first place. i can't keep justifying my friendships with you. i shouldn't be put in a position where i have to choose between you and my friends. there are only sooo many ways i can say and show you that you're as important to me as they are. you want my whole entire being, and honestly i dont think i can do that. you crave for my attention as if i dont give you enough. i guess the continuous hours that we spend on the phone while my friends are out is not enough. my twice a month trips up there is not enough. and i can't believe you would use you coming to visit me more against me, no sacrifices on my part....you threw sooo many low blows in almost every aspect of our relationship


so we'll see if there's anything left in me to work this out w/ you.......